致岁月迢迢

“我越过十二万公里，越过昼夜与星辰，越过硝烟与战火，你在哪里，我去见你。”

读库2103

就像深海里的鱼都是瞎子，沙漠里的动物都很耐渴一样，我是一个怎样的人，很大程度上是由我所处的环境，而不是由我的所谓本性决定的。其实我在当时就察觉到，工作中的处境正在一点点地改变我，令我变得更急躁易怒，更没有责任心，总之做不到原本我对自己的要求，而且也不想做到了。

遣悲怀

我若有所悟。像进入一个更庞大更漠然的族类。像宿命性的巨大伤害在那时便已埋下伏笔。

羞耻

The air there is full of unasked questions. But their smell is faint, and the flowers in the many maturing gardens, the trees lining the avenues, the perfumes worn by the beautiful soignee ladies of the neighbourhood quite overpower this other, too-abstract odour.You can get anywhere in Pakistan if you know people, even into jail.Shame is like everything else; live with it for long enough and it becomes part of the furniture.Shame: a short word, but one containing encyclopaedias of nuance. It was not only shame that his mothers forbade him to feel, but also embarrassment, discomfiture, decency, modesty, shyness, the sense of having an ordained place in the world, and other dialects of emotion for which English has no counterparts.