我们内心的冲突

不只注意那些让他预见失败的因素，还要注意那些让他始终害怕失败的因素

读库2105

如第十二图（图12），阿Q自己打自己耳光。这是阿Q性格中最被人们诟病、也是最体现阿Q精神的重头戏之一。父亲勾草图一开始并不顺利，总觉得还差那么些味道。那晚正好我母亲在一旁做针线活，她看了就说“要真打”，说着伸手就往自己脸上猛拍！父亲一下子抓住了感觉：阿Q紧闭双眼，手伸得老远，可以想象他是多么狠地将自己附体在了“别个”身上。

新千年文学备忘录

珀尔修斯的力量永远来自他拒绝直视，但不是拒绝他注定要生活于其中的现实。他随身携带着这现实，把它当作他的特殊负担来接受。

如何读，为什么读

Melville was not a Christian, and tended to identify with the ancient Gnostic heresy, in which the creator God of this world is a bungler and impostor, while the true God, called the Stranger or Alien God, is exiled somewhere in the outer regions of the cosmos.Early, major Faulkner is a kind of unknowing Gnostic; West, Pynchon, and McCarthy in their different ways are very knowing indeed. My subject is how to read their best fiction, and why, and not how to instruct my own readers in ancient heterodoxies (at least not here!), but the first sequence of four novels that I have chosen, in the wake of Melville, achieve their negative splendors in modes parallel to Gnostic visions, as we will see.